"Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood." ~ Marie Curie

That is the quote that my sister posted in the Guest Book on Brian's Caring Bridge site this morning. I know that in life there are times when things just cannot be understood. This is one of them for me. We got some bad news last night, and now we are just playing the waiting game, but I got a call from my sister about 10 last night. She had spoken to my mother. To make a long story short, this is what was posted on the Caring Bridge site for Brian. My mother got the call from her friend Janet around 9, and she was trying to be strong, but could barely speak.

We are sorry that we couldn't tell all of you personally of this message. There are so many friends that it would be impossible to call you all.

This evening our family met with the doctors about Brian. The doctors have warned us in the past week that Brian's condition was worsening. They told us that it was possible that Brian would never recover and never leave the hospital.

Brian's liver and kidneys have failed completely with no chance of recovery. Even if he had a donor liver and kidney right now he is too sick to receive them.

The only thing keeping Brian alive now is the Prisma dialysis machine and all that does is clean his blood for the kidneys. There is no machine that will do that for the liver and the toxins will just keep increasing.

We have asked the doctors to keep Brian as comfortable as possible and put his fate in God's hands.

I guess we all put our fate in God's hands every day, but this is a little different. I am not sure about traveling now next week, I am supposed to be in St. Louis for work, I am just going to wait and see I guess. Tough day.