Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Off to Warmer Weather

Off to FL today, packed at 4:00 am this morning and I am just dragging. Went by the boys after work and errands last night to talk again. It is so hard, because I know how badly he feels about this, and I really do know deep in my heart that this is one guy that is not like the other ones who never would do anything to hurt or harm me. He really has been struggling the past two nights seeing me so upset.

I still had a couple of questions floating in my mind that I needed him to answer, and he did, and I do understand better. And I was right, while he did cancel his subscription Sunday, he did not know that it did not take down his profile, so I told him it was still active. He didn't believe me, logged on and saw for himself. Since he had activated his profile again, he had quite a few new emails and winks, I explained to him when he activated his account, he showed up on top in peoples searches and such. He did not know this either.

Relationships are so hard. This is one that I have really tried not to make the same mistakes with that I have in the past. We do have really good open communication and talk about things that bother us and that we enjoy. I do know that. I just don't want to be naive either. It will be nice to have a couple of days away I think and just collect my thoughts. He will be picking me up from the airport, so we can talk again then.

Looking forward to sitting in the sun and soaking some up. I hope it is nice. Back in a few days.

4 comments:

Bossy Bar-Wife said...

Jilly, I hope you enjoy a few days away in warmer weather. You're right, relationships are really hard, no matter what. I hope things continue to improve in this one! Take care...

terri said...

Hi, I've been checking in on your blog every now and then since I saw a comment from you on Greek Tragedy. I've even thought of contacting you before as we have some things in common (single, professional, thirty-something in the twin cities) and thought you might be someone I could be friends with. I just wanted you to know that I sort of know what you are going through - something VERY similar happened to me. I know that horrible feeling you must have had when you saw the profile. Just thinking of it gives me an empty feeling in my stomach. I know you know this, but you have to trust your gut. I wish you didn't have to go through this, but you'll do the right thing!

Lisagh said...

Have a great trip!

Susan said...

Hang in there, Jilly!

 
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