Relationships

The past couple of months being as hard as they were, were compounded by the fact that I felt very alone throughout the whole thing (except for you guys in blogland of course). I missed my girls out East more than anything and I also missed the US Open for the first time in 16 years, which made me miss the girls even more since I usually go with them. I had not, up until this point, really formed the strong bonds of female relationships with anyone here that I trusted with my feelings on this which made going through this with the boy even harder. My sister was there, as much as she could be with three kids, a husband, a dog, a new kitten (going through heat I may add and then getting fixed and declawed), a turtle, three hermit crabs, kids going back to school and having to go back to work herself. So no, she didn't really have time for me, not that she does really anyway. I have made a couple of girlfriends recently who are sisters, and they were wonderful but they are also new relationships, so it was new. So there was really no one here that I fully trusted with my full feelings on everything and it made things with the boy that much more difficult.

Well, I am that lucky though. Back on September 5th, a couple days after Labor Day Weekend, one of my girls from out East called me that morning and asked what I was doing for dinner. I picked her up from the airport at 6:00 we went and had a fabulous dinner, got to spend some quality one on one time just talking, laughing, crying and catching up and then I took her back to the airport at 9:45 to put her back on a plane headed for NYC. Oh how I miss her. I miss her smiling face, her cheeriness, her positive outlook on life, the relationships that she shares with her three sisters and mother-each of whom welcome me into their own lives with open arms as well, and just her.

I miss having that shoulder to lean on, the shoulder to cry on, and the silence and comfort of someone who just knows and gets me. I miss the person I share a past with, the person who shares the same core values and morals that I do. I miss having the girls to just hang out on the front porch with or curl up on the couch with and watch a good chick flik. I miss having the girls to get ready with for a fabulous night out. I miss mornings on the beach filled with rehashing the night before and planning that evenings festivities. I miss the camaraderie and companionship and everything they bring to my life. I am working to build that here, but there are just some things you cannot replace.

I am so lucky to have someone in my life though that recognized through this struggle that I needed her and I needed her here to pick me up when I didn't think that I could myself. It was so wonderful having her here, even if it was just for one dinner. I am a lucky person and she is a beautiful thoughtful person who deserves all of the wonderful things in life that are bestowed upon her. . . .